Peace and Pandemonium

I'm grateful for your phone call last night.
It was a nice to hear your voice after 3+ months of not speaking to one another.
Rejection.
Betrayal.
Anger.

I'm thankful that we were able to skim the surface peacefully. It felt familiar.
But it was also nice to dip and dive a little bit deeper. A bitter work that must be done.
Honestly.
Fearlessly.
Bravely.

Our conversation made me feel that there is potential for reconciliation.
We have a lot to work through but your willingness to let me express my honest feelings and your attempt at understanding them made me feel hope for better days.
Acceptance.
Forgiveness.
Amendment.

I'm sorry that I have caused you pain and heartbreak.
I dont always know the best way to deal with difficult situations.
Regret.
Imperfect.
Flawed.

I have missed you and I could tell that you have missed me.
That made me feel good.
Love.
Warmth.
Connection.

I am still learning and I know you are too.