Peace and Pandemonium

Today Steven and I are going on a trip...alone! We have planned to spend a couple days in St. George and then to take a day trip to Vegas. It feels so strange to leave our three children behind. We've never done that before. I have gone back and forth about a hundred times, should we go or should we stay? Should we take the kids with us or just cut the strings and take the plunge without them. The thing that's making this decision even harder is that my kids have been sick for a week now. Matias and Sophia both got a pretty bad cold last Thursday and then to add to it Matias got an ear infection. Isaiah wound up with pink eye and our cat Gus got in a fight a week ago and had an abscess on his paw. I've taken every one of these kids (and cat) to the doctor in the past 6 days and now I'm leaving them all behind. Three of the four kiddies (or kitty) are currently taking medication. Thankfully everyone is on the up and up, but still...

On one hand I feel like if I don't take this opportunity to get away for a couple of days I'm going to go crazy! I don't know how much more whining and complaining I can take before I crack. Steven works so hard and vacations are few and far between. I think we would both be really sad if our plans fell through. On the other hand I don't want to leave my little sick babies behind while I go off and party for a few days. It makes me feel neglectful and guilty.

The silver lining is that my sister Ashley has kindly agreed to take care of our kids for us and I completely and totally trust her take amazing care of them. She is very responsible and loves them almost as much as I do. This is a comfort to me right now and it's the only reason that we are still going through with this. I know my kids will be in good hands. I'm excited and scared at the same time. I guess that's how most mothers feel when they loosen their grip a little. I know that this trip will be good for me. Steven and I have been needing this for a while!! I'm excited to get away. The warmer weather is calling my name!! Loudly.